i'm in love with Islamic guy how to be the perfect wife for him?

hey, i am isreali but i am missionic now, i have been jew when i was born and after i felt bad with my reilgion i was change her easily to be a christian .cause i am felt much more close to ja the christ my grendmother called Emillia thats a kurdish name they are like the Armenian pepole.so i am look diffrent and got A diffrent way of tinking and thoght and i am working on myself as i need.i am not triyng to change him cause i love him so much but my juilcy makes me thinking a bad things of him and that is wrong i am all the time cry and not because of hi m and he do not like it and some times we are trying to be nice one for the each other even when he beat me and i am feel bad with myself i know inside of me that is connect to me and to my family why i am like tha. now he says that he do not want me anymore after he ask him an amberessing question and i am so sorry about that but i felt like my stomach is so heart cause we were so bad one for each other and i was loudy to much and he brake ot from me and tell me that he do not likes me anymore but hes a prince for me and i am his queen but i do not know how to be a queen i am so much confused so much i like the Arabic pepole they are so much good pepole they are helping for evreyone i never saw something like this my jelusy get out from control i was mad about him for nothing and forget what he wants from i was sais so much stupid things to him with mea fo doing this like a little girl. buy the way he know how to cook his realy proffesional , he loves childrens, his the best guy ever, why i am not good like him why i do not know how to speak to him he was made food for evreyone allways listening and got a cute face with beautifl eyes and best friends and he love evreyone and so smarthe helped me the best he can do now i got nervvus time my 3 years old dauther was taken from mei got to pay buyltshe wanted to help me he was gave me all of his money he loves me so much i love him from my soul